donno why

I don't know why he always says I give him the pressure.
He wastes his time during the day time to sleep or to chat with his friends.
As a result, he doesn't have time to share what happens during the day to me, because he has to study.
If I say: please try to use the day time and to spend the evening with me, and he will say I give him pressure.
In my opinion, we can't spend time with each other during the day time, so for sure, I hope we can spend some time in the evening.
Am I wrong?
In spite, I told him that I feel sad because I didn't have any progress in my German.
The response which I have got is that I give him the pressure.
I spent time to correct his Chinese but he didn't spend the time to teach my German as long as mine.
I even have to post a notice to look for the language exchange.
What a shame for me...
Everyone asks me why I have to look for another one.
I have already had the one who can practice German with me.
I don't know why.
He says he loves me so much...but I don't know.
He said I bothered him a lot because I sent him 10 SMS someday.
It's just because I missed him.
Anyway, as long as he feels stressed, he starts to challenge me everything.
That's him.

he has never told me about what he talked to his families

He has never told me about what he talked to his mum and dad if I didn't ask him
however, he always asks me what I talk to my friends or chat with my friends in the msn...
I don't know why.....jaja
he doesn't like me to ask too much but he always asks me about the same stuff...even though the SMS...

I can feel it

I can feel he loves me and I am important for him.
I love him as well and hope he can feel that he is important for me.
It's enough~

會呼吸的痛

想念是會呼吸的痛 它活在我身上所有角落
哼你愛的歌會痛 看你的信會痛
連沈默也痛

遺憾是會呼吸的痛 它流在血液中來回滾動
後悔不貼心會痛 恨不懂你會痛
想見不能見最痛

沒看你臉上 張揚過哀傷
那是種多麼 寂寞的倔強
你拆了城牆 讓我去流浪

你回來那就好了

能重來那就好了

I have experienced the relationship which is the most truly, wholeheartly hurt but the sweetest n lovely

He told me he have decided to separate after he go back after threes months.
I said it's fine for me if you say so, even thought my heart is bleeding at that moment.
He told me many reasons such as culture issue, communication problems, we won't speak the native language of each others, I can't get the job in Germany because of language and I won't be happy to be a hausfrau.
I was quiet to listen what he said and to see his eyes with tears.
I asked him how many possibility we will be together after he go back, and I helped him to answer this question,
first, he will say he doesn't know.
second, the possibility is like only 10 %
it hurt me soooooooooooooooooooooooo much and it's hard to express how painful I feel.
It's like a glass which is shot by a gun suddenly
I think I can t do anything because I can feel he is trying to convince ourselves that we won t make it.
Consequently, it seems useless and hopeless to say anything no matter how much I want to solve it.
He was asking me why I love him so much...
my answer was that nobody is like him who always try to make me laugh a lot and to hold me like that
I do really want to say I don t love him and it would be easier for me to get rid of this sadness.
before tomorrow, I still hold a little tiny hope that we can make it, but now, he has totally destroyed my wish.
It s ok because relationship is composed of two people.
I won t force him if he is not interested in me.
I just wanna say it is so painful like a sharp knife which can t stopping lunging into my heart.
I am sure I will miss him so much and I know it will take a long time until when that I can't predict.
I don t regret because I chose it when I met him in Lufbra.
Now, I have experienced the relationship which is the most truly, wholeheartly hurt but the sweetest n lovely.