Tuesday, November 20, 2007

is there any effection of devorced family

More and more people come from a devorced family.
Why is that getting more about the numbers of the devorced families?
It might be that people dont respect to the marriage as much as usual.
The thing is what effection is caused to the children.
My parents argued a lot when I was a child and teenager.
Everytime, I feel stressed and anxious when they were arguing.
I am not sure that is there any relation between my insecure feeling and fearing of their argument.
but I am sure it is related certainly.
When I grew up, I realised there is no use to ask my parents to live together if they dont love each other anymore.
the problem is that I did hope they can live together when I was a child, because I desired to have a whole complete family.
It is conflicted in my mind, and also, I have many thoughts affected by this issue.
For example, I dont really want to have babies, cos I am not sure how long I will love my partner.
Even I love babies so much.
Also, I will feel painful, if I dont love my partner, but I have to keep this famile in order to meet my children's hope.
I also wonder, how many children who come from two familes will still wanna believe marriage?
It seems to get fewer, I thought....
But I still believe it.
I do believe and respect to my marriage.
I always tell myself that I wont give up my marriage if I have children.
But also, I dont want to have babies until I can make sure we love each other so much and we want to have our next generation.