I am gonna lose my mind

I just cannot stopping thinking of him...I am gonna lost my mind...
I know he is with somebody that's why he didn't give me a call. only email to me....a bit sad...but I know it's real...that is Alex's style!!!cannot cry!!!

I am seeing somebody who is not into me...

I realised that I am seeing the one who doesn't want to stay at me.
I donno why, maybe it's just lack of the magicnation.
I like him although he has got a bad tamper and a divorce.
He likes to read and do sports which are what I want...
I just donno how to make him be into me...