有一種又愛又怕的感覺

有一種又愛又怕的感覺
好恐怖.....莫名的焦慮

when u fall in love with a guy whom u cant mention to other friends....

I have been in the UK for 10 months, since last July.
during this period of time, I have got used to live alone.
my life is full of courseworks, drink wine, party with friends.
Actually, I have thouth that I would have not done something out of my prediction.
but I m wrong.
I have falled in love with a Austrian....it sounds so unbelieveable.
and I also feel guilty.
honestly, we just have been together for one week; however, the feeling is getting stronger.
I dont know why, cos I dont think it will spread dramatically.
I cant reject anything which he ask for, even sex.
I know we are impossible, cos we jsut stay two months.......
after that, who knows what will happen....
sometimes, I m wondering is there any chance to stay together longer.
but the truth is no chance.......
cos I have tete and he will go back to Austria.....
the other is that he is a student now.....
but I like him.... so much~~~~
and I love him.....
I dont know.............
but I dont think he love me so much........................
it's a pity.....maybe the God is testing me now....
unfortunately, failed.............
but I am happy with him......honestly...